What if I fail? What if I lose?

These are only some of the questions that often go through our minds when we are faced with challenging circumstances.

I knew life is really full of challenges and risks. A challenge I am facing now is that of being in a secret love. Secret, which means there's no commitment. No words binds us. It's just our hearts who speak. Who know. And who understand. "Where do we go?", "Is there a better future waiting for us?", "Will we survive?" Those are just some of the many questions bubbling in my mind. Full of fears. However, for the sake of the love we have for each other, I feel compelled to overcome all these fears and act on your behalf. How could I do that?

I asked myself "Will it be better if we finally decide to commit ourselves?" Some could get angry, sad, jealous, envious, hurt -- but that would pass. We could lose some people but I'm confident GOD would supply more. "Or is it better this way?" No strings attached. No commitment. But full of risks.

Last night, I was so scared that I had to struggle hard to drive all the fears and confusions away. I was reaching out to you and was waiting for you to make me feel that I don't bear them alone, that I have you with me. That everything's gonna be fine. I slept with all the worries in me..

But before I slept, I talked to GOD and prayed. I asked HIM to talk to you and let you feel me, let you know I badly need your comfort, your care, your love.

This morning, I woke up with a smile as I read a message of care from you and a kiss sent by you. Again, I say to you, it made my day bright. It cheered me up, you cheered me up. It gave me new strength to face everything. You gave me a great feeling, a feeling of security. Thank you so much, Sweetie..

Trusting GOD for a good outcome is always the best thing to do, I know. Just like what I did. I believe that in whatever situation I find myself, GOD is with me to help me sort it out, look at it from different angles and ultimately see it from HIS perspective. Then I act according to HIS will and trust HIM completely for a great outcome.

I look forward for a tremendous victory, for me and you (MY beloved). Let us HOPE for the BEST; that our love be blessed forever by our ultimate source of everything, our GOD.


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Posted by Lainee at 12:56 PM | speak up!

Yesterday was a SPECIAL day. EXTRA SPECIAL day. =)


I won't worry anymore..=) I WON'T.





Thank YOU, MY beloved.. Thank YOU for being there (as YOU have uttered sweetly).. Thank YOU for the warmth of your arms, in which YOU make me feel so loved by YOU. I LOVE YOU too.. so much.


*To GOD be the GLORY!*

Currently feeling: loved

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