Yeah. I am GOD's princess.


* The entry below is supposedly my entry yesterday.. Here it is:

MIXED EMOTIONS
August 1, 2006

I am mixed up by these feelings today: HAPPY and TOUCHED, GRATEFUL, BLESSED yet SAD, CONFUSED, WORRIED, SCARED.


HAPPY and TOUCHED- coz finally I've met my BELOVED's family. A warm and sweet welcome from them gives me a unique feeling of acceptance and confidence.
-coz it was my first time to step inside my BELOVED's home.
-coz I was able to show in my own ways how much I genuinely care for him.
-coz I finally met in person my new friends Raf and Lai. I know I made my friend Raf happy.
-coz I was able to watch again at last the gig of my big bro buddy Nyoy. (Let me quote Nyoy "Feels like it's been ages! Pero ok lang. Basta nagkita na tayo ulit!") I'm deeply touched coz Nyoy expressed how much I am missed. He gave me a red rose. So sweet of my big bro buddy.


GRATEFUL- to Raf, for bein' with me throughout the day.
- to my BELOVED's family for the warm and sweet welcome.
- to GOD above all, for the Divine guidance and intervention.

BLESSED - for all the answered prayers..


yet..


a bit SAD, CONFUSED, WORRIED, SCARED - ahmmm, I prefer to keep it between GOD, me, and my "secret keepers."


Then..


Last night, I was able to release all the hurts, pains, worries and any other negative thoughts and feelings. How?.. I meditated. I poured my heart's feelings into GOD, I cried it out to HIM. Then I asked HIM to take away all the negative influences by embracing me. Believe it or not, HE embraced me. It was really cold last night but when I asked an embrace from HIM, I suddenly felt so warm, so secured, so relieved. It was such a great and magical feeling. GOD even helped me used my "mystical heart" to talk to some people and be able to say what I really wanted them to know.. It was successful.


So now, it feels like I am about to face a brighter tomorrow.. Victory is at hand! Tomorrow smells so good.


I LOVE YOU GOD MORE THAN ANYTHING AND ANYONE. I WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR PRINCESS.


*And to you MY BELOVED, let me be your PRINCESS too.*

Currently feeling: relieved

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