i am so gloomy since last week.. why? aside from i am suffering due to coughs, colds, and slight fever, i am emotionally being battered by these worries:


1) my BEZ and i had a miscommunication.. until now, we're not very okay..

2) one of my grandmas died last saturday..

3) my best friend among my cousins (ate foyan) left for Singapore yesterday.. i miss her badly..

4) my brother did something (as always) which brought burden to my parents..

5) my mom is very bothered and worried.. it's bad for her health condition..

6) my dad is being attacked again by hypertension..

7) last night, a very close gal friend of mine made me feel bad.. i even had a nose bleed because of the emotions she caused me..

8) i miss YOU.. more and more each day..


* i wanna thank ate maryan for cheering me up even a bit.. *
* thanks also to chuchay for constantly rememberin'.. *
* so glad to have my ate miyan.. *

Currently feeling: stressed

Posted by Lainee at 11:16 AM | 6 left me a note!

I said I am OVER you!.. I don't care about you, anything about you, any little thing about you.. But due to so many people and things connecting us, I am kept updated. It is so irritating. But no matter how much I want to completely cut the connections, I can't. We have a common world. Our connections (may it be a person or thing) have already become a huge part of me and my life. I definitely love them. So, what's left for me to do?.. I don't know. In the soonest possible time, I should know. Coz it's unhealthy for me. Maybe now, I will just pray to Him to keep me emotionally stable when it comes to you.

I am so grateful that I have a world, a real world, in which you do NOT exist. This world brings me a lot of realizations. How I wish I could bring with me totally the people I love from the world where I met you. But it will be very hard. There will always be times when they will have to bring me in that superficial world..

Well, this is life. I'm gonna face it with courage. Strong enough.

Currently listening to: All BEHIND Us NOW by Patti Austin
Currently feeling: irritated

Posted by Lainee at 03:06 PM | 6 left me a note!

I am really happy today. GOD is truly great. After stressful days came a lovely day. Here are the reasons why I feel so alive today:

-----> My parents are coming all the way from Nueva Ecija to visit me and for my mom's monthly check up at Heart Center.


-----> My Bez and me are now in better terms. We are both willing to fix things and be back to normal.


-----> I got an email and a friendster message from my DADDY ARCHIE!.. Yahoo!.. After 17 days, I heard from him again. He made me smile..





** Thank You, Lord! You are my GREATEST LOVE. **



* I wanna go to HongKong for my Daddy Archie or to Singapore for my Ate Foyan!!! *

Currently listening to: Crazy For YOU
Currently feeling: grateful

Posted by Lainee at 06:09 PM | 2 left me a note!

Together with my family,grandma,aunts,uncles,cousins and their partners went to Mimosa,Clark yesterday to spend time together in celebration of Tita Thelma's birthday. We went back to Q.C. just a while ago. We really had a great time. Personally, it was a very wonderful time for me. I felt like I am in heaven. So peaceful, full of joy. We were not complete though. (I miss you, Kuya Aldrin.. I miss you, Ate Foyan..)

Aside from having a great time with family and extended families, something brought me inner happiness too.. My friend whom I had a misunderstanding with said sorry to me and eventually we were able to clear things. Not to mention my DADDY ARCHIE texted me..

But then someone ruined my lovely day.. I discovered something that made me feel so disappointed.. I guess some of the people visiting here were able to read the tag of that person regarding my post "STRONG ENOUGH." Some were not able to read the tag because a concerned friend who manages my tabulas sometimes deleted the tag already so I won't be able to read it and get hurt. But my friend loves me so much that she realized I deserved to know about it.. The one who posted that tag was named "someone to help you get over him". Fortunately, my friend was able to get the IP address and found out who posted the tag.

I don't really know what to say, what to feel, what to do.. Not because I am admitting what that person was imparting. But because I feel like she got beyond the limits. What hurts me most is that the person was dear to me.. But getting back to history just made me realize that truly, history repeats itself. How I wish I never had to encounter this before finding out that she is not really a friend.

Oh well, I am a prayer warrior. I believe this is just GOD's test of my faith. Don't worry LORD, I will never ever fall out of love with You just because of the struggles You are giving me. Instead, I will love You more for making me a strong person. I love you, Lord. You will always be my GREATEST LOVE.


*Thanks Chuchay for the info.. *
*Thanks April for bein' there..*

Currently feeling: disappointed

Posted by Lainee at 07:31 PM | 4 left me a note!

I am feelin' so good today. Actually, it started last night. I was able to chat with my DADDY ARCHIE!.. He made me forget the feeling of disappointment regarding what happened the other night.. Then, a chat with my BEZ was the next thing. Finally, we are totally okay now. I can see the light of a more wonderful friendship after a more or less three week time for us to ponder..

I can warmly feel GOD's love for me.. HE never lets me feel so lonely. Truly, HE is my HERO.



*Thanks to Ate Mama Foyan, Tweenie Danica, Mama Tere, BG Trishee, BG Chengski, Chuchay Anak and Babysis April for bein' there to comfort me..*
*My special thanks to Canis for the sweet hug yesterday and for the words I badly needed..*

Currently feeling: thankful

Posted by Lainee at 05:38 PM | 5 left me a note!

" Trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding."

--No matter what happens, I will faithfully hold on to the above line..--

Currently feeling: in love with God..

Posted by Lainee at 09:41 PM | 6 left me a note!

I feel vivacious today because of my long lost friend who visited my blog.. it's Maan but I remember I love calling her MAANTOT during our elementary days.. Maantot is my friend since nursery until grade 6. She left for California. But we manage to keep in touch until now.



*Special thanks to my Ate Foyan for bein' there always..*
*Thanks also to my sister (Ate Ayeen) for the nice chat..*

Currently feeling: happy

Posted by Lainee at 03:37 PM | 5 left me a note!

Crazy For You
Written by John Bettis and Jon Lind

Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers making the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one

I see you through the smoky air
Can't you feel the weight of my stare
You're so close but still a world away
What I'm dying to say, is that

I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you, crazy for you

Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Eye to eye we need no words at all

Slowly now we begin to move
Every breath I'm deeper into you
Soon we two are standing still in time
If you read my mind, you'll see

I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you, crazy for you

It's all brand new, I'm crazy for you
And you know it's true
I'm crazy, crazy for you


--This song is DADDY ARCHIE's fave. It was played on a certain FM station just a while ago, it made me miss DADDY ARCHIE.. I can still remember his version of the song! Haha. So cool, believe me.--


I also love my bigbro buddy NYOY's version! I miss NYOY...

Posted by Lainee at 03:54 PM | 5 left me a note!

It was Royan's birthday yesterday.. We had a dinner party. I ate a lot, bad for my diet. Hehe. So cool, U-turn attended my cousin's party. Too bad, I wasn't able to chat with them coz I together with Ate Kayan and Papa Paolo went to the nearest Starbucks (Convergy's Q.C.) to just bond. I had a great time with them. We shared a lot.. Hehe. From funny to horror stories. Thanks Ate Kayan and Papa Paolo!

Let me say thanks to Wade for a nice chat. *winks* Thanks also to Ate Gracie(you know why,ate..)

And before I forget.. I wanna greet Eyin.. Happy Birthday!



*Ate Ayeen, visit here more often!*
*I miss my Ate Foyan..*

Currently feeling: sleepy

Posted by Lainee at 03:26 AM | speak up!

Today, a realization struck me in the heart and soul.. It is a secret but I am revealing it to everyone.. I HAVE LEARNED THE SECRET OF BEING CONTENT.. You know what it is? IT'S BEING IN LOVE WITH THE LORD. I hope same thing will strike everyone's heart and soul.


I wanna reveal another secret.. As of today, I've got 148 testimonials on my Friendster. I took time reading all of it again.. I wanna share my favorites. I don't mean to make the people who have made testimonials for me -but I have not chosen to share here- to feel less appreciated.. It's not that. I just wanted to share the testimonials which really struck me and they are as follows: (arranged according to dates)

eyin, Friday, October 17, 2003:
si aelain...

mahal ko yan.


tOpe, Thursday, November 06, 2003:
aelain is the perfect girl for a guy
who wants a perfect
relationship...kind, thoughtful,
malambing....everything na yata nasa
kanya na...kaya im very lucky to have
her as a friend....tnx for everything
pate...ingats lagi and im always here
4u...luv yah!!


Maryan, Wednesday, December 10, 2003:
pateh ko yan.. yung unang reason
kung pano ko siya naging pateh e dahil
my younger brother tried to court her,
unfortunately his charm did not pass
her wit.. pero ok pa rin pala kse
pateh ko pa rin siya even after that..
brother naman ng someone ko (at that
time) ang nag-try.. he won her heart,
at hanggang ngayon sila pa rin..
isa siya sa mga kaibigan ko na yun
tipo ba ng ipapaglaban ako.. tipo bang
fight to the death.. siya kse yun
hindi hahayaang maltratuhin ka ng
ibang tao, lalong lalo na pag anjan
siya.. she's a fighter.. hanga ako sa
kanya pagdating sa bagay na yun, kse
kung anong kinatapang niya, siya
namang kinaduwag ko.. pero its ok, kse
nga i know she's there naman to give
me some of her strength.. mahal ko
yan, kse i know mahal rin niya ko..
feeling ko nga sister ko yan eh..
(nako pwede pa ba yun, e feeling ko
brother ko si eyin?) oh well, baka sa
past life natin, the three of us came
from the same family.. (nyaks ang
pangit!) bsta mahal ko yan, mahal
na mahal..


Pamela, Friday, January 23, 2004:
ate aelain!!! angel ko yan!!! man i
love this girl so much..she is indeed
one of a kind..even if we are not
biological sister we are sisters by
heart naman! i met ate aelain thru the
forum! and i never thought that i would
be close to her but im thankful that i
did become close to her because she is
one person you can really trust...ate
aelain is a very responsible,
sweet,thoughtfull,jolly,adorable,amazing
,humble,God fearing...lahat na ng
pwedeng sabihin ganun ate ko!!! she is
trully a treasure worth keeping and i
am proud to be her lil sister!! love
yah ate!!mwah! miss yah1


eyin, Friday, January 30, 2004:
"I hold you nearest to my heart because
you're someone who stirs in me emotions
I have never known before, who evokes
in me a love that ages shall not
destroy - and whom I would follow to
the ends of the earth.."


April, Wednesday, March 03, 2004:
haaayyyy... ang ate lainee ko the best
tlga 2.... hindi ko alam kung pano cya
pasasalamatan sa lahat2... ate lainee
helped me a lot with some of my
problems... she never left me... anjan
cya palagi... i'm glad the she's always
there, ready to listen, ready to be
consulted... mahal ko 2, sobra... cya
din ang pinakasweet kong ate-friend..
lagi yang nagaask if i'm okay... pag
may problem ako alam nya, nararamdaman
nya... kaya nga i'm happy that God gave
me a friend who's very nice and sweet,
c ate lainee... lagi akong napapasaya
nito... kaya nga i can't afford to lose
her... she knows how much i value our
friendship... sobra2... wavsh0o ate...


dindi-full, Saturday, March 20, 2004:
lEn... my bEst frIenD..


LoVeTtE, Friday, April 02, 2004:
si mahalain ko she's my sweetest frend
napakswit nian she always find ways to
help me wenevr im really down.. barkada
ko yan e and dmi kmi nging secrets
nian. we argue before but still ended
up good frends kc we stood by each
other. siya ung type ng frend na yaw
niang nadedehado frend nia shes willing
to fight for us in the bes way she can.
she always manage to reunite our barkda
khit na laulau na kmi.. bait2 nian. we
share a lot of memries together and
still communicate.. take care of urself
ha...hoping she'll stay the way she is
kc mahal na mahal nmin cia. hope to see
you mahalain i'll always be here for
you..iloveyah!


cHeeKyMaiKa, Friday, April 30, 2004:
Heee.huwala langsst, i realized my
first testi to you eh parang wala
langsst. But this will be pretty shorty
too. Lein, thanks for everything.
Basta "friends" will always mean "lein
and mikay" ayt? Tee.

aLeAn, Monday, May 03, 2004:
si aelain... since elementary (1st
grade), she's my friend na. mabait yan!
she loves her friends so much.
ipagtatanggol niya ung mga mahal niya
no matter what. sweet. thoughtful.nerd
friend ko yan? know why? kc dti she
tried wearing glasses and then nka-
pigtails siya, braids pa nga yata. i
teased her na she looked like a nerd
and she looked like wednesday of adams
family kaya un, i called her nerd
friend and she used to call me "bright
friend". we were so close. takbuhan ko
whenever i need advices and when i have
problems sa luvlyf, family, kahit saan.
alam ko, she'll never dare to leave her
friends... sana...
mahal na mahal ko yan. at miss na miss
ko na... sobra...


OneHellaGurll, Wednesday, May 19, 2004:
si aelain..nagkakilala kami sa ushs,
naging barkada nung 2nd year
highschool. ang dami na naming
pinagsamahan niyan,kami ng mga barkada
namin. all i can say is si aelain ay
true friend, maaalahanin, sweet, at
syempre di nawawala ang kabugakan,
lalong lumalala ata ng makilala ako
kasi isa din akong dakilang bugak, i
mean madaming jokes at bagay kaming
pinagtatawanan, masayahin din siya,
kaya ayokong umiiyak yan!!!!!!


Anneski, Thursday, May 20, 2004:
my ate princess aelain...i love her so
much! she is so friendly and nice...i
like her attitude of being
sweet...minsan if i tell her i love
you she will reply back and tell you
na she loves you too! no matter what
happens...what im thankful for is that
she is one of the reasons why im still
here, in the cyberworld! she made me
realize things...na many people loves
and cares for me...hayyy...she totally
rocks! lolz! =) to my ate princess
aelain: thanks for everything! to you
and to him, more power?! hehe...u know
what i mean...and whatever ur plans
maybe, remember, im always here, ready
to support...and if ur sad, txt mow
lang me! ill try to make u happy!
lolz! dbah dbah? i will never leave
u...i love you ate aelain! thanks! i
hope to see you soon again...take care
and God bless! -anneki


Pamela, Saturday, May 22, 2004:
momski ko!!!! one helluva friend..she'd
stick by you no matter what happens...
momski ko super duper kaduper
bait...super duper love nya kami ng
dadski ko...super trustworthy...momski
aelain ko super duper thoughtful din
and super duper kaduper kulit din
minsan!nagmana sa dadski ko! hahaha
basta momski ko super duper love ko
toh! misha!!! mwahhugs!


Aireen, Saturday, May 22, 2004:
AELAIN? My sister..my bestfriend! no1
knws me beter dan her & i cnt confide
in any1 as easily as i cn in hr.
Fighter c Len kya nga she's my
defender.kya dun s mga umaaway skin jan
& 2 dos hu wants 2 pull me down,lagot
kau s knya!d nia kau tatantanan!cia ung
crying shoulder ko.Isang tingin nia lng
s mga mata ko,alm nia n f i hv prblm,f
im hurt by som1 or f im truly hapy.she
alwys rspects my decisions kht mnsn
kontra cia coz wat she wnts 4 me s 2 b
hapy. as a buddy,malambing!gus2ng gus2
nia 'kong niya2kap kc ang bango2 ko
dw,amoy baby! hehe..sweet dn cia,she
used 2 make a note 4 me tpos nila2gay
nia s walet ko or s rum ko jst 2 tel n
nmi2s nia 'ko & dt she luvs me...Sis
thank you 4 being der 4 me lalo n s mga
pnahong 2 n i rily nid com4t.Bsta im
hir 2 suport u.nvr mind dos pipol hu
puts u down.in tym,maiintindihan k dn
nla.bsta kung san tau masaya eh d dun
tau d b! Go girl!i knw alm mo gngwa
mo,ryt!?I love you LING...amishooo 2!

Jamill jay, Thursday, May 27, 2004:
to my ever dearest cuz!!! dnt wori what
ever u r expriencing and feeling right
now.... syo ko!!!!

OneHellaGurll, Thursday, June 03, 2004:
si len.....she knows me
best........kaya nga thankful ako kay
god nakilala ko siya..siya na
nakakakilala sakin ng totoo..kase kahit
magpretend ako to be someone else, she
still know me..she saw me when i was
invisible...thank you len for sharing a
lifetime friendship with me..with you i
dont feel unloved..i love u!!!!!!!!


Jacq, Saturday, June 05, 2004:
len-len...yan ang tawag namin sa
kanya..she looks like a little girl
pero she's already a lady.strong and
smart enough to make the right
decisions.tama,im one of her sisters..
pareho namin na di ineexpect na there
will be a time na magiging close kami
pero nyoy paved the way,diba!!pareho
namin kasi gusto si nyoy as a singer
and im happy for her coz he is one of
her friends na rin..super bilib ako sa
sis ko kasi alam niya on how to manage
her studies,social life & personal life
at the same time.kaya dont worry,gaya
nga ng sabi namin ng kuya jay mo,we'll
support you as long as you're doing the
right thing,and i believe that you
did..basta,if there are some things
that are'nt clear enough for you to
make a decision,we're here,ok!naiiyak
na ko,hehe..goodluck sis!tuwa ako sa
pix mo!luv yah!


mitch, Wednesday, June 16, 2004:
a very thoughtful lady.. simple..
quiet.. sweet.. a true person.. very
loving.. a real friend.. a little
sister..


mitch, Monday, July 05, 2004:
a very pure hearted lady.. always
ready to listen.. a shoulder to cry
on.. always ready to support, to
understand and to give a lending
hand.. always thinks of others before
thinking of herself.. very selfless..
loves unconditionally..


MAureen ANn, Thursday, September 09, 2004:
I've lost contact with this cool cat for the past
few years, but we grew up together in the
Philippines and she's one of the few, but
really close friends of mine. I really can't do
her current persona justice, but I still
remember Len-Len of the past. She was
basically the highly intelligent, well-
mannered girl that is wise beyond her years,
which every parent wished you were. She
was humlble enough though, that she didn't
overly flaunt it around. Len-Len was also the
epitome of the best friend almost everyone
wishes they have. What I remember the most
was that she was always there, even if you
just wanted a simple chat about anything and
everything, or if you just needed someone to
pour out your poor little heart to. She's the
one who kept me from crossing over to utter
insanity and deep depression. She always
seemed to have the right feel-good advice for
you. She doesn't even have to tell you
anything. A simple warm hug from makes
everything all right. ^_^ I mi


Jonnadel, Thursday, September 09, 2004:
len-len, two words, "the best"..gasgas
na pero un tlaga cya..laging
maaasahn..sweet, thoughtful, kalog din
pero mas madalas seryoso..sobrang
galing mag-advice kaya sa kanya ako
madls lumlpit kht n magklyo na
kmi..kayng-kaya niyang pagaanin ang
loob ko..para bang angel na bumaba
from heaven kung ieeshags...kaya
sobrangb love ko 'tong friend ko na 2...


Francis, Friday, September 10, 2004:
my friend aelain - she's a true princess.
i miss her smile..=) God bless. Ü


mAcKy, Tuesday, September 28, 2004:
AelaiN CaBrErA--my
grUpMaTe, my FaV'RiT SisTer, my
crush,n' ofCoRz my BEZ FweNd!..As a
groupm8, VerY cooPeratiVe!..weLL,
sya aNg aNgeL
ng Group A! di ba?.. Ahhh maTaLino
Poh sYA, MANA SAKIN!!!!..As a
SisteR..sHe is always coNcern 4
eveRytin' n' verY cariNg poh...
sHe's one of the
few persons na nakakaiNtindi sakin kc
Baliw Rin sya!..Handa yan
makipag-away para sa mga mahal niya
tulad ko! ahhh acTuaLLy sabi nYa'
cruSh nYa ko,, pro ang TotoO ako riN'
hehe! Alam Nyo kc sweeT toNg beZ
koh minsaN nga sobra naH pro, uN ang
GusTo koh Talaga Sa kaNya...
AELAIN AS MY BEZ--We've been
best of friends for almost two years
but as U caN see KaMi Prn....!..Her
hugs and SmiLe, etC. can make me
feel truly loved... soMetimEs POh
TamPo koH dyaN kc PinaPalit aKOh ky
JessiE(bess Nya) hmmmmffff!!! joke
pro HaNggaNg ngaYon lOve ko paRin
yaN Bez koH! miZ u naH... hOpe na
sanA tumibay pa anG atiNG saMahan
Dba??? paNO d2 NalanG... tKcre
always! i Love You mah' oNly Bez!
muaHHH


jhanna baby, Monday, October 04, 2004:
My bebe aelain.... i love her so much...
our friendship has been tested even for
a very short span of time... and i can
attest that she is worth the friendship
that i have fought for... i love everything
about her... esp her family! i'm a part of
theirs, right bebe? i miss you so much
though we talk almost everyday! basta u
know naman that i'll always be here for
you, without having second thoughts to
reach out to you... i love you so much!
thanks for the wonderful friendship we're
sharing and will share for the rest of our
lives.... muah!!!


EeReN, Friday, October 08, 2004:
SomeOne SpeciaL

She's someone I don't want to loose
She's someone I don't want to forget
She's someone that I could lean on
She's someone I call a friend

She's always there through laughters
and sorrows
She were there to pick me up when I
was down
She were there to guide me
Eventhough sometimes we don't share
and laugh anymore
But still she's my great friend and my
groupmate.
We are friends for life!

czarina, Monday, October 11, 2004:
<= god fearing person... just be strong
always kasi He will never leave you nor
forsake you!!


jhanna baby, Saturday, October 16, 2004:
my everdearest bebe aelain.. i love u so
much! u know naman how much i
appreciate the friendship that we have...
it's an endless relationship that i
promise we'll forever have... i'm glad
that you've finally found someone to love
and i know u deserve to be love by
HIM... He's PERFECT... can't compare
Him to anyone else... continue being
good to other people... i love u so much
be!


jhanna baby, Saturday, October 16, 2004:
one thing remarkable about this girl is
her personality... can't compare her to
anyone else... one thing i can't forget
was the time she told me that whenever
we're together, mga people daw nalilito
or something to us... kc di daw alam
kung kanino titingin dahil we're both
blessed with pretty faces...abay
shempre kanino kaba magmamana
kundi sa mommy mo diba? hehe... wala
kokontra hmmm... be, u take care
always. u know naman that u're never
alone...God is always by ur side,
likewise with me... mwah!


tErE, Sunday, October 31, 2004:
my fwend aelain... she's such a
wonderful person... i missed her na nga
e... miss her kakulitan... her ka-
hyperan... her kwento... her laugh... miss
n miss ko n tong fwend ko n toh!... so
lucky to have her as a real FRIEND...
yeah! a real one... one in a million yan!
basta olweiz take care of urself h... or
else sumbong kita... hehehehe... miss n
miss n kita... luv kita fwend... no matter
what happen, im olweis hir for you...
owkei??


Bee-Em, Thursday, November 04, 2004:
mabait ang mommy lemlem ko! Lab na
lab ko siya!


Nicki, Friday, November 12, 2004:
Special ang ate aelain ko. you can tell
pa nga from the name palang that
there's something glowing inside her. sa
pronounciation...Aelain (elaine) means
shining light. it's true. she is the
brightest, happiest person you can find.

I love my ate aelain. she can always
make you feel loved. that's what's so
great about her. she's always going to
be the best!


Pee-yah, Sunday, November 21, 2004:
aelain... a strong girl!
i miss my teddy bear...
mwaaauuuhhh!
God bless!


Cheng, Sunday, December 05, 2004:
aelain is something extraordinary,
imagine someone who is just happy
being able to love her loved one and not
ask for anything in return, its like being
heroic and idealistic at the same time, i
cant do that, well maybe i can but it will
be too hard, but aelain has a strong faith
specially in god and love that nothing
will weaken that faith, whatever
problems, tasks and challenges she
believes theres only one certain guy for
her. AND WE ALL KNOW WHO HE
IS.. i dont need to say his name, i
admire her courage for loving someone
this much without thinking about herself,
its something wonderful and perfect,
unconditional love,i wish i could love like
you someday...and dont change


natasha camille, Saturday, December 18, 2004:
my ate len... a very spiritual person... a
God-fearing person.. she's truly an
angel.. i love you!

jaMiE annE, Wednesday, December 22, 2004:
mama lainee is a very sweet person! she
is also an angel who inspires me to hold
on to GOD all the time. i love her very
much! wag ka alala mama, i will always
pray for u... he loves u naman eh! takot
lang un... mwah!


gladys joy, Wednesday, December 22, 2004:
c aelain.. my twin... she's one of the
sweetest person I've met... sobrang
thoughtful at gagawin lahat to make you
feel that you're special. She's the kind of
friend na hindi ka iiwan... a good
listener and magaling mag-advice...
cyempre, pretty & charming friend ko
na 'to... i miss you so much twin!!



ej, Wednesday, January 05, 2005:
my ONE and ONLY tiya lainee... Love
na Love ko sya... and alam ko na alam
nya yun... though minsan lng kami
magkita, close na kme... sobrang
palagay na ang loob ko sa knya and
her, with me. My Tiya Aelain is one in
a million... a strong willed individual who
never cease to amaze me with her
intellect and her big faith in GOD... kaya
nga bilib na bilib ako sa knya... hope to
see you soon tiya, and if you need me,
im just one text away... [as always... :D]
ok? Love You Tiya!

"Give yourselves to God...
Surrender your whole being to him to be
used for righteous purposes. ---Romans
6:13"

April, Friday, January 07, 2005:
i am not her bestest bestfriend....

but for me....my mama achee inang
betspal lainee is my bestest bestfriend... I
always thank God for giving me my
AELAIN.... i know her so well.... i know
what makes her cry and what makes her
smile... i know the reason why everyone
likes her... i know the REAL aelain... and i
know why i love her so much....

...it's because there's something about her
you don't know... she's REAL.

" No one could ever destroy our
friendship... subukan nyo lang! "

i love you... you will always be my most
special bestfriend...

aelain and i are real sisters... not by blood
but by heart.... i am so proud to have her!

ate aelain... i miss you...

God bless!


ryan, Monday, February 07, 2005:
hey babe! this girl rocks, she has
been an important and huge part of
my life, shes the sweetest girl i
know..It has been wonderful
hanging out with her, wish we could
do it again when i go back there. I
had so much fun. I would be a lucky
guy if i had her but too bad, Im in
Guam!!! maybe i should consider
moving to the there with you *wink*
miss you so much, i love you
princess and you know that..*kiss*


Nicki, Monday, February 07, 2005:
haay...i love my achee
lainee...why? coz she gives us so
much love! i'm so glad i met her.
she's so kind simple and loving.
and she's got an unbelievable
patience in God's work. basta
achee...you take care of yourself!
we love you! *mwaaah*

-Nicki xoxox


matThEw, Thursday, February 10, 2005:
i call her alaine, elaine , cutie,
baby, and maynard. hehehe lagi
nagrereklamo mali daw spelling ko ng
name nya. love ko and feeling ko
nawawala ko tong sister. sister finally
i found you. hehehehe. maraming
nagamamahal sa kanya kasi madali sya
mahalin , beside maganda sya. bukod sa
friends sya ng manos at i na update nya
kami sa gig ng manos sobrang CONCERN
nya. (o di ba connected) and TAKE NOTE
matalino to . sabi nga nila beauty na
brain pa. madaling kausap, masarap
kausap, malambing, sweet. sya yung tao
na pag naka away mo parang pwede ka na
sabihan na pinaka masamang tao. sobrang
religious. sya yungbaby ata ate ng grupo
A kasi matured. masasabi ko lang sayo,
m always here for you whatever happen.
just focus on your study and be happy.


natasha camille, Saturday, March 05, 2005:
i can't thank enough my ate len for
inspiring me to become a truthful and
faithful prayer warrior..she's one of the
few yet best reasons why i continue to
love and trust God much deeper..i love
you ate len..and i miss u so much..hope
to see u soon..i miss ur hug..tke cre!
love u! God Bless!

Chuchay, Sunday, April 24, 2005:
ibang klase magmahal...ibibigay nya
lahat and kahit na mahal pa nya
pakakawalan nya maging masaya lang
ang pinakamamahal nya.

maalagang ina...laging natatandaan ang
mga anak nya at laging pinapaalala sa
mga ito na mahal na mahal nya sila.

masarap na kaibigan dahil masasabihan
mo sya ng kahit na ano at siguradong
walang ibang makakaalam...pag
kailangan mo ng makakausap o
maiiyakan laging nandyan kahit anong
oras.

maraming nagmamahal sa kanya.

isa na ako sa mga taong yun.

hinding-hindi kita iiwan o sasaktan.
mahal na mahal na mahal kita.
andito lang ako.

*mwah!*


Miyan, Saturday, May 14, 2005:
lenlen! She's a true ANGEL to me and to
others! She inspires people to be faith-
filled and to take life as a beautiful
journey towards eternal happiness. A co-
Prayer Warrior, she turned out to be a
strong young woman amidst all the tests
she had undertaken. Beauty and brains
in one, i'm sure men really drool over
her, but, remember, my cousin, there is
a man for you who deserves all your true
and unconditional LOVE. Just wait on
the LORD, His perfect moment awaits
you...love yah and God bless (",)


jhanna baby, Thursday, May 19, 2005:
my everdearest bebe aelain... i miss this
gurl so much... well, what more can i
say with this gurl? she's very dear to
me, more than a bestfriend more of my
long lost bebe...hehe... i cant say
anything bad about this gurl bcoz for
me, she's everything a person could ever
asked for, may it be as a friend, sister,
relative or even as an acquaintant...
especially if this gurl came to love
you...grabe, i salute this gurl when it
comes to loving people... she loves God
so much, thas why she is the way she
is... i am sure that everybody who
knows her loves her dearly but not as
much as i do with her..hehe... what im
trying to say is that she's very lovable
and kind-hearted...honestly, words arent
enough to say how much i adore the
person in her...sobrang lucky ung taong
mamahalin nya and i hope that you'll be
patient enough coz for sure, it'll be worth
the wait!!!! ILOVEUSOMUC, MY ONE
AND ONLY BEBE AELAIN!


April, Sunday, July 10, 2005:
achee.... i never realized dat i wud be
missing you like churvah...... hehe....
know what? you're my you... hihi... what
do i do if ur not here with me? what can i
say if i don't know what to say... what
can i see if im blind? won't you stay with
me?... akayin mo q, wala ko makita...
love is blind daw kc weh...

seriously, im macky este lucky to have
you... im happy coz i got sum1 like
you... sum1 worthkeeping... i love you...
i love you so much... u r and will always
be my 1 and only mama achee inang
bestpal soulfriend beb lainee..... no 1
and nothing cud ever destroy r
friendship... WALANG PWEDENG
UMAPI SAYO..... taga mu yan sa
bato....... ul always be special....
Godbless....
je t'aime........


Wade, Saturday, July 16, 2005:
Aelain is a sweetheart! Be good to her!


Chuchay, Monday, July 18, 2005

Nobody even comes close to the place
my Mommy Aelainee has in my heart.
There is nothing I wouldn't do and
nowhere I wouldn't go for her!

She's an amazing mother. Simply the
best! Her physical beauty is nothing
compared to her sweet, warm,
compassionate spirit and her huge, soft
heart. She's an absolute blessing to me
and I thank God for every day that I
wake up and remember that I have her
in my life. I'll be her friend and anak to
the end!




I am done. Hehe.. I am sorry if I took your time in reading my entry today.. Thank you for sparing me your time and attention.

Currently listening to: Girlfight by Brooke Valentine
Currently feeling: loved

Posted by Lainee at 06:56 PM | 4 left me a note!

Through my experiences in life, I have learned that the SECRET OF BEING CONTENT is BEING IN LOVE WITH GOD..When you are in love with GOD, you will be capable of loving a family member, a friend, a teacher, a taxi driver, a janitor, a beggar, even an enemy,anyone.. unconditionally. Just last night, a great realization struck me. I amazed myself by proving that I can be the same friend, the same little sister, the same person "you" knew after knowing the real person "you" are.. But let me reassure "you" that I will never leave "you". "You" will not lose me. Never will I judge "you" just because "you" didn't have the courage to be yourself. I completely understand and respect "you". Now, have the courage to build your trust in me. I make it a vow that I will still be here for "you" until the end of time.. I will accompany "you" as "you" travel in the journey of life. Please smile coz GOD loves "you"!.. And so do I. Friends for life!

Currently feeling: peaceful

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Let me share you my breakfast this morning.. Yeah, my breakfast.. Breakfast with GOD.. My breakfast in which I was able to combine my being a nurse and being a prayer warrior.

Everyday Benefits
Blessed be the Lord, who daily loads us with benefits. Psalm 68:19

Blessings we take for granted are often forgotten. Yet every day GOD "loads us with benefits." This morning, I was struck when I was reading my book entiltled Breakfast with GOD during our vacant time at Philippine Orthopedic Center Emergency Room and realized that I should thank GOD for some common things like:

--Lungs that work well and steadily-- ten to fifteen times each minute.

--Bones that protect vital organs and muscles to hold in their place.

--A healthy disease-fighting immune system.

--An untiring heart that pumps nine pints of blood through 60,000-mile network of vessels.

--Body temperatures that remain constant.

--Our five senses-- eyes to see the dawn, ears to hear your loved one's voice, a nose to smell the freshness of the early dew, the sense of touch to enjoy a hug, and the sense of taste to savor breakfast.

--Nerve cells that synapse and send messages to other parts of the body.

--A digestive system that brings nourishment to all the cells of the body.

--The ablility--and desire-- to get up and out of bed in the morning.

--A place to live and place to work.

--Loving and supportive family, friends, instructors, and colleagues and the oppurtunities to let them know you care about them.

--An intimate relationship with GOD through Jesus Christ.

--The changing seasons that remind us of the different times of our lives.

--Each day's unique beauty-- the angle of the sun, white clouds stretched out across the blue afternoon sky, the gold and pink sunset.

--The rotation of the earth that gives us day and night.

--Times for quiet reflection and grateful remembrances.

--The gift of laughter-- and the ability to laugh at our mistakes.

--And every little thing...



*I hope I can touch the heart and the soul of the people who will read this entry..If yes, let me know by leaving a note..*

Currently listening to: Dreaming of YOU by Selena
Currently feeling: thankful

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We had our Acquaintance Party yesterday in which we had to come in Safari Attire. COOL! Right? In fairness to myself, I know I was very well dressed. Haha. (Some webcam shots are in my gallery.)

I missed DADDY ARCHIE during the party. I am sure it was not only me who missed him but also my groupmates and my instructors who are DADDY ARCHIE's friends..

Speaking of DADDY ARCHIE, let me greet him here.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Currently feeling: drained

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Waaaaaaaaaaak!!! Thank YOU, DADDY ARCHIE! Thanks for the call, for the time, for the attention, for listening and for the advice.. YOU saved me, DADDY!.. I am deeply touched.. You got no loads in your mobile anymore, sorry!.. YOU are my savior! Mwah! Mwah! Mwah! I miss YOU!..

Wade, thank you for being one of my walls..

My hugs to Tweenie Danica, Mama Tere, BG Chengski, Sarahpotski, Kuya Tope, and Canisss.. Thanks for being there..

Paks Irene, thanks also for the chat, call, and everything.. *HUGS* Oh, have to mention the poem.. Hehe. Let me post it here.

LETTING GO

Sometimes I wish we never met,
Sometimes I wish things are easy to forget.
I wish I had the other way,
I wish that I knew then what to say.

Why do our paths have to meet?
Why do youu have to be so sweet?
Why do my feelings have to grow?
And now, why do I have to let go?

I always find myself thinking of you,
I always find myself longing to be with you,
I always dream of things which never come true,
And to find myself falling truly, madly, deeply in love with you

You don't seem to see the little things that I do,
And you know it leaves me feeling blue.
You leave me hanging in the air,
Trying to think if u really did care.

I'm not quite sure about how you feel
And I don't even know if what you show is real.
Intense emotions I would have to deal,
Emotions that leave me trembling with fear...

Please don't blame me for the way I act,
I guess its that I've accepted the fact,
Now it's silly to wish you near,
Still you should know this feeling is real...

Letting you go wasn't easy,
Neither was forgetting about you,
For no matter what I say,
No matter what I'll do,
I know I'll always keep on loving you...







*"Friendship is a blackmail to love."*

Currently listening to: I Can Love YOU Like That
Currently feeling: touched

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