My BOYFRIEND did not really leave me.. HE never did. But HE is back! HE held my hand. I held HIS hand back and I will never let HIM go again.

I never really fell out of love. But I don't deny it that I have done things which broke HIS heart. That's why I am taking this chance to say that I'm IN LOVE, so IN LOVE with THE BEST BOYRIEND I ever have.

I am IN LOVE with.. GOD.

 

 

Posted by Lainee at 10:02 AM | speak up!

What Aelain Bahia Cabrera Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

Posted by Lainee at 06:37 PM | speak up!

Ang puso niya ay punung-puno ng pagmamahal. Kaya naman makikita mo sa mga mata niya na masaya siya. Ngunit ang di nakikita ng sinoman ay ang luhang dugo ng kanyang puso.. Luhang dugo na dulot ng maraming tao, maraming bagay.

Sana sa pinakamadaling panahon, mabigyan ng lunas ang puso ng ating bida.. ang puso KO.

Currently feeling: confused

Posted by Lainee at 09:06 AM | 2 left me a note!

It was a day before January 14, 2008 when I had a text conversation with one of my friends who is also my senior at work named Aimee. I was so nervous and worried that time because my turn to take the Critical Care Course (one of the major trainings a Philippine Heart Center nurse should go through) is coming and because my inferiority complex attacked me. I had to ask Aimee for words of encouragement. And the words from her which I remember most are: "Kaya mo yan", "50% sa'yo 50% galing sa Kanya", "Malay mo magulat ka dahil baka mag-top ka pa!" Those words meant a lot and became my motivation.


Crtical Care Course started on January 14 and ended on February 28. As I went through the course, I experienced stressful days and sleepless nights in order for me to survive tons of lectures, surprised quizzes, homeworks, return demonstrations, journal review, case study, tiring night duty shift. The people who kept me going were my family and relatives especially my mom, my boyfriend, my "angels" Divine and Anne Martha, my friends/workmates especially Aimee, Suzette, Preema, Amy and Jelyn, and every person (may it be someone I know or someone I don't) smiling sweetly at me. They never failed to uplift my spirit. I also aprreciate the support of my course coordinator (Ma'am Beth) and my classmates. And what I love most during the entire course is whenever (almost everyday) I voluntarily lead the prayer before starting our day.


One month and a half of waiting for February 29, 2008, the day of graduation.


Just few hours ago was our Graduation Ceremony. I was full of joy because finally I proved the people right that I can really survive. But what made me teary eyed because of joy was when the moment I heard my name being called to go up the stage and receive the recognition for being the top 8 of the class. It surprised me, it truly surprised me. I never expected it. And as I went up the stage and saw the crowd applauding for me, I began to realize that everything I invested physically, mentally, emotionally, socially and spiritually was worth it.


Before I end this, let me thank all the people (especially the names mentioned) who generously supported me and untiringly prayed for me during my Critical Care Course. I am glad to share you my joy because I made it to the top 8. I will never forget you.


And let me end this by giving back the glory to our Lord GOD for His divine guidance and unconditonal love. He is my greatest source of wisdom, strength and inspiration. I love you, Lord!

Currently feeling: thankful

Posted by Lainee at 06:34 PM | 1 left me a note!

I don't know but these past few days, I've been wanting to pay tribute to "some significant people".. Here it goes..


K.E. -- You were my first love. Thank you for the wonderful years you shared with me though we didn't end up together (we didn't even try). I just want you to always remember that no matter what happens, I will always be your ANGEL and you'll always be my hero.

N.A. -- My very first bf. My years with you will always be worth reminiscin'.. I never thanked you enough for loving me whole heartedly. But GOD knows that I was, I am, and I will always be grateful for giving us the chance to share our love one to the other. It feels so right bein' your HONEY but treating me like a PRINCESS was the most unforgettable part.

J.M. -- Like I said, never did I regret loving you. I loved how it felt when I was your BABY. Yeah, I was like an injured bird when you left me. My world almost stopped moving. But eventually, I was able to accept, to forgive, to let go, and to move on. I learned a lot from the relationship we shared even if it was so short. And now that you need me most as your BESTBUD/PARTNER, I promise not to leave you alone. We will prove the world that we are the perfect example of how ex-lovers became the best of friends.

D.J. -- The unforgettable you. We were not given a chance to show the world the love we had for each other because some hindered that love. I was more than willing to stand strong and to wait for you but you were too weak. You gave me up and our love so easily. It was really painful but I don't take it against you. Despite it all, I still want you to know that bein' both your LITTLE GIRL and your MOMSKI plus bein' your SWEETIE will always be a great feeling. Let us not forget "MAHIWAGANG PUSO".

J -- You saved me. I told this before, I will repeat it today. You have seen me at my worst yet you love me at your best. Thank you is an understatement. But I do hope that through the relationship I now share with you, I can little by little show you how much I value you. Experiencing rough times is normal but the way we tightly hold is undeniably amazing. I love bein' your MOMMY/MY and I'm lookin' forward to spending more beautiful days with you.



After airing it all, I can now say.. I never felt this good!

Currently feeling: thankful

Posted by Lainee at 11:09 AM | speak up!